If the after life is based on unfinished business, I will be stuck here for eternity as I leave a wake of incomplete tasks, projects and thoughts. This is my fourth draft post, as I have been unable to find the right material to move on with the other three I have started in order to publish them. I can look around the living room and kitchen and see the hanging of the hooks that I have left undone, the dishes in the sink that are less than two feet from the dishwasher -their sanctuary- even though I unloaded it this morning I couldn’t seem to load it back up and the paper work on the table that has been in a to file pile for far too long. I guess when I look at it I see multi-tasking at it’s finest; I started so many projects the house will slowly come together. Unfortunately, that is not how it reads for everyone else who see I may have started many tasks to help better the house, but how many tasks have I actually completed, that is what I need to take pride in, finishing what I start.
So today, along with this post I have started, I have returned to the hooks to be hung in the living room to hold jackets or hats -today being such a wet day- and it’s now or never; never being the option I don’t even want on the table because it is tempting to be watch Netflix on repeat than work, but this is an attitude and outlook that I want to move away from. My other fall back weakness is wanting to wait for the man to come home and take care of it for me, how embarrassing to even admit that -what have I become? Instead of taking initiative and going down to the garage to look for a hammer to tap in the dry wall anchors, I find myself hoping he will walk through the door and want to go down and get everything for me and who am I kidding? He is usually exhausted from working hard all day and I want him to be happy to come home and work more? Even I wouldn’t want to do that, so let me get to work on completing one project today, to have something new to be proud of.
And what do I do… I mess it up. Of course, now instead of making things better I added to the chaos. Now I need putty or something to fill the holes I made and to find a new spot to place the hook. The power drill can’t even be used to screw it in because the knob of the hook is in the way -what terrible designing. Now looking up ways to fix my problem without having to drill two more holes; there is an option to glue the anchor in -one I may consider- also looking into getting a different brand of drywall anchors because I couldn’t get the style in the wall without causing it to become too big and not hold. Another yet unfortunate fact, we have only $26 in our account and it is not necessary to fix it now so this project will be put on hold with all the others. Now to find a new goal to complete today, dishes it is -a simple task no need to put off any longer!
And I did it! Cleaned all the dishes or placed them in the dishwasher, and what better way to celebrate that with cookies and milk. I also talked to my mom on the phone; tomorrow I will call my dad. Now to focus on obtaining a job, looking for work or a temp agency to help me find work in Southern California.
Well one more things can be crossed off as I have completed an only profile through AppleOne Employment and set up in interview with an advisor for tomorrow at 10, all I need to do before then is print out my resume.